ADHD

Sometimes it's easy, sometimes it's hard. But every day it's still quite a task
Nowhere to run to, nowhere to escape. I pledge myself to responsibilities from afar...

Time chases and runs me over every waking hour
I can't get things done even though everything is within my power.
Too scared to confront or too lazy to get up
It's still the same boy who never wants to give up

You say you are angry with me for forgetting,
I have been angry at myself for a long time for something similar as well: being inadequate...

I hate that I forget
I hate that I don't know what to do
I hate that I get distracted easily on my own
I hate that I have to write down important dates and basic everyday tasks
I hate that I get overwhelmed easily
I hate that I move on to another task without completing the other

I hate that I'm the way that I am
I hate that I can't perform simple tasks without spending too much time and energy
I hate that I have to be the one always apologizing for something I didn't mean to happen
I hate the way I am

But...alas! I am who I am
It is my cross to carry, my burden to bear
You don't get over this. You just learn to live with it

But, it still hurts when you are labelled lazy
When all you are is always hazy.